Yesterday and Today

Thank God I manage  to run into my house before the rain starts to pour like elephant..er.. ok.. just ignore me! The auntie next door was clearing all the laundry in and was distracted by my funny move. So, she stood there and look and me, and I smiled back. Then she asked “do you eat potato?” “yeah” I answered. Then she told me to wait and she brought out few pieces of nice big pink potatoes for me! AWH!!! Thanks!! Then I asked “do you plant all this?” (because she actually have her little farm behind her house). And nope she did not plant it but one of her relative. WOW!

After clearing my stuff from the car, an idea hit my head. Yeah, this must be a good topic for blogging!

Our older generations seems to have better surviving skill than what we have today. Maybe because they were born in left fortunate era where not everything is as accessible as today. I remember my great grandpa was originated from China. He and his wife migrated to Malaysia and since then they were farmers. They learn to survive from war, and they plant their own food to survive. With the little things they have in hand to work on, they manage to move their way up from a little farm to many estate and soon a business which enable them to own many properties. (So, you must think that I am rich now ah? NO!) His son (my grandpa) was slightly a different man. Was not well in managing wealth and hence we depreciated from there. In my grandparents era, they have to go through war too. From there, they learn to plant their own vege.

I grew up in a village, hence, plantation is nothing odd for me. I have banana tree, starfruit, ciku, small mango, mango, pomelo, jackfruit tree, rambutan tree, coconut tree, papaya tree and some other trees which I don’t even know their names surrounding my dear wooden house! It is not easy to maintain them! My uncle would have to climb those trees to wrap the fruits with newspapers so that they are safe from bats and worms! Without much chemical, they grew nicely and their fruits are sweet. But who is willing to do that kind of job today? The only planting we know is to plant in FARMVILLE!

Today, we are surrounded with so many variety of food. All we need to do is to get the cash and buy them home! We are so blessed that we do not even need to learn to survive by planting or growing our own food. We just need to survive in the market place to bring the bread to the table and yet, we complain when the onions were ugly, the chicken is not fresh, the fish is smelly, the very got too many spots, mushroom so expensive, too much chemical used to grow the vege and so on. Besides growing our own farm in our mini garden, we cement or tile them up to make bigger space for our home and less work on maintenance (cutting the grass, watering the plant, condition the soil and wrapping those fruits). The fact is that mini garden can help to cool down your house temperature. Beside spending some time in the garden to enjoy the green and fresh air while gardening, we rather play our video games (the tech savvy generation), work over time (for more income) to cope with increasing food price, go party all night or maybe sleep for long hours.

With much service provided to make our life easier, we tend to take advantage of what we have given. How many of us today actually wash our own car? They either not wash till they have to pick some important people, or maybe just spend some CASH to send their car for CAR WASH services. Business is always and excuse and jobs are created to help busy people to complete their work. We pay people to clean our house, we pay people to cook for us, we even pay people to run our errands and many more. And yet, we complain… BAD SERVICE! I PAY YOU TO WORK AND YOU GIVE ME LOUSY SERVICE?

Like it or not, MONEY is the surviving TOOL today in our modern society. It is no longer our farming skill. Life gets easier when our bank account gets fatter. The world have evolved MONEY have take its lead in the society. But what will happen when one day MONEY no longer have its power? Are we ready to plow with out bare hands?

Global warming is not a myth anymore. It is now a reality. Gold is not the only option to cure but go green will be the ultimate option to cure our mother earth. Going green does not means going backwards. There are many entrepreneur move extra miles to turn green into their gold. With our little help we can try to support by using our own recycle bag rather than having the mentality of :

“20sen per plastic bag only. I have the money, I can pay for the plastic”.

A fulfilling weekend!

My weekend started on Friday night! I took a brave attempt to drive alone with GPS to pick up dearie from Mines. Usually I’ll get my in-laws along but thins time I decided to eat some courage!  Well, as stupid as I am, I still took wrong turns with GPS and I ended up going round SUNWAY and PUCHONG! AMAZING! So sorry dearie, I paid countless tolls (that is KL) and took an hour to get you!

Saturday! Broga day! After an amazing 3 hr sleep in my dearies arms, I have to drag myself up (even I hate to) to prepare to hill climbing expedition! We left house about 4.15am in the morning and pick our friend up before he head for the expedition! We arrive that the foot around 5.30am to 6am. Well, we forget about our torch lights! So, we need to rely on other friends torch! So, anyone venture into hill under the moon light before? Well, it was fun! Its pitch dark! and the stars are beautiful!

Our mission: to reach the second peak before sunrise!

With a lot of sweat, fun and strength, we finally enjoy the cool morning breeze with a kiss of sunshine!

After a good morning exercise, we head to the most expensive food court for food. I had my rm8.50 Bak Kut Teh that does not taste like bak kut teh..ok…forgive…

After all the morning adventure, we head home for a nap and spend the late afternoon venturing into baking! My first attempt to bake EGG TART with the help of dearie! He has a big fat flat thumb which is really good for pressing the dough into the mold! Well, I guess his mom is really proud of him! He bakes! ahahah! We made 12 mini tarts and share it with his parents. They love it so much! and not to mention, my dearie love it too! He actually requested me to make another round so that he can bring back to SG! So we went to shop for proper molding on Sunday after church service and spend our Sunday night baking egg tarts together again! I brought them over to my inlaws place again this morning, and they still love it! My mom inlaw actually could not resist it and just glup in one piece while she was chopping some vege! HAHA! EGG TART business in future perhaps? AHAH!

SUNDAY! It was suppose to be my shopping day too! Dearie decide to bring me for a date. Shopping for shoes and clothes and end with delicious dinner! However, I was too SLEEPY to shop! Can you believe it? HOW CAN YOU BE SLEEPY WHEN YOUR DEARIE IS PAYING FOR YOUR SHOPPING!? Maybe there were too many people in the mall and I was not comfortable shopping. Hence, dearie decide we head for our planned dinner and postpone shopping to this weekend in SG! AWESOME!! Hopefully I am not lazy to shop! ahahahahah!

Dinner? We had Zanmai Shushi for dinner. Well, dearie actually translate it for me the meaning of the shop…it is called ~3 taste shushi~ wahahahaha! Another attempt for hearty meal and out tiny tummy only spend RM53. Goodness! We are such a small eater!

Well, it was just a short weekend with dearie. I miss you already!

Emo no more..

One of the night I decided to put up an EMO post. And I manage to attract a comment. AHA! Sometimes, writing it down may be the best way to release all the stress which have been accumulating for sometime. And yes I would prefer to write down than to talk. Ane-way Thanks for commenting!

So, after talking to one of my trusted friend/leader, he manage to give me proper words to settle the issue. Well, I hate to talk about it, i would prefer to write but then I force myself to confront it and it turn out teary-silly me but it was good! Like one of my friend said – *ladies are very emotional. Sometimes we cry over small issue and we don’t even know why we even cry*. Thanks for you concern as well lil sis! It may be affecting my health badly but then yes, I am learning to cope with transitions now! Cross roads are never easy but then at least I have his support behind my back now.

136th Street

Full four months he has been away and life is not much different when I was in Uni. Go to campus, head back home/ outings with friends and waste the rest of my time in front of my favourite pet call – LAPTOP.

Many things has happened for the past four months. Not only around my life but life around my neighborhood. The traits about the occupants along the 136th streets are pretty much similar. Not in what they do or how they live, simply because each and everyone have their own life. Most of the occupants along this streets are young couples! Some just got married and some not and some about a year ago. But of course there are still houses with 3 generations under one roof.

December, one of my neighbor, can be consider as our close friend as well, welcomes a new life into their home! A BABY GIRL! Then in January, they celebrated the baby’s fullmoon (chinese culture). In this celebration they will either do a little house party or send out boxes of gift (box contain yellow rice, curry chicken, 2 red eggs and some chinese pastries) to their family and friends. In their case, they send out gift boxes with a little name card on it!

Well, still in December… my sister came over a few days before Christmas to help me decorate my home. Miss all the shopping and bonding with her already!

February was Chinese new year. Most of the occupants are Chinese, hence, you can see many houses with nice red decorations. Well, I was not there to enjoy the celebrations and joy in 136th street. I was away. But before the new year, the was a wedding! Wedding? Yes! Wedding! My neighbor few doors away moved in earlier than we do, and finally they are married! Well, we were not invited of course because we did not invite them either. But then as a good neighbor, I would like to wish them all the best and congratulations!

March, seems to be a very happening month! Well, I woke up one morning heard baby crying (the baby is still crying now). Then I wonder, which house is celebrating new life again? Little did I know it was just next door! Not long after that, the other neighbor next door seems to be going in and out of the house and getting busy for some thing. “Another baby?” I think to my self because she was pregnant the last time I saw her. They were pretty quiet neighbor. Did not really speak to us and more of ‘mine their own business’ kind of neighbor. Just two days ago, their friend are flooding their house with gifts and joy! Congratulation! You have a new member at home! And just to confirm it, their baby’s diaper flew over to my gate yesterday morning…ew! BABY BOOM! 3 new accupants in just 4 months! wow!

Owh, I almost forget. Last week was another week of joy for a neighbor just opposite my unit. Joy? YESH! BABY? NOPE! NO more babbies! They just got married! YAY! Well, this house is funny. We don’t even know each other till today. Similarly, there were two occupants in the house and we thought they were married (because they look like). Initially my hubby thought they guy was her father. Then on our second glance we thought, must be her husband because he saw them lovie lovie holding hands and so forth. Then just last week, I thought they were going to do house warming because they set up a tent in front of their  house. The following day, their Myvi turns into a wedding car! Congratulations! Another newly wed!

So, in four months, 3 babies, 2 weddings. All the sweet symphony of life.

I am trying to sleep!

So here I am, writing my very own bedtime story before I reread it and doze off. I am suppose to be resting now, Yes I am on my bed but I am not sleeping. I tried to, I laid down for 30 minutes but it was so hard. Well, partly it was because of my gastric and partly is due to another issue.

Well, I remember when I first moved to KL, I begin to miss home so much. And today, I somehow reminisce back this problem and fell into it again. When I was not feeling well back home, I have my daddy’s arm to find comfort in. And yes it still happen when I grow up (see I am not grown in typical Chinese family). Daddy will get the best porridge in town for me after he took me to the doctor. Before I head to bed, daddy will come with a glass of hot milk. BAck home when I am down, he is always there to listen to me. He is such a wonderful dad isn’t he?

Today, we are so far apart, I need to drive 4.5hours to reach him. Life is no longer that sweet without him so close to me. I miss him so much. I am down with gastric, I need to get my own food, drive myself to the doctor and comfort myself to sleep. Owh daddy! Seriously, no one can replace your love and your care! I miss you so much daddy!

Goodness, it is pass midnight and I am emo-ing in my blog. My stomach is still painfull and my heart hurts too. I am still trying to understand how provision and money can replace time and physical presence. The world have changed, they regret not working harder and earn more money than regret not spending much love with their love ones. Well, many things seems to be confusing as we begin to grow from our carefree life. Well, the old ones will tell you ” you are still young and will not understand but you will one day”.

If U dislike me emo-ing here you may please leave this page or move on to the next post! Neither shoot me nor comment.

I am just trying to see the light within my new life. Not as easy as I thought. I wonder how single woman make their way through towards a successful status. It has been a few months now, and I am still cultivating my surviving skill. Ah, not easy to survive. You have friends and peers, but where is the shoulder you need to snuggle in when you are down and broken? Well, maybe I am just too selfish and self-centered. Or maybe I would say too dependent. My dad knows my character well, but does ‘he’ know?  Or life is better off when we run for our own goal than sharing it with your the other half? I would say it is easier. I can choose to do what ever I want to do (great if I am single) but now that I am not I would have to consider my choices so that I am not taking the selfish route. Sometimes, sacrifices would have to be made for a better reason. Career was my primary focus, now that I have my the other half to share, I would need to restructure my path to make sure I don’t neglect my family. I do hope it will be the same for the other half.

So what about tears? Sometimes we cry for the same thing over and over, but why cant we just save it and cry once and for all for the same issue? Well, the some place are facing water shortage. What about our eyes?  Do we have so much tears to waste on a repeating issue?

I think i better punch myself to sleep now… if not I will just end up writing a book!

Goodness my gastric is killing me! Well, single ladies! How did you go through when you are in pain and you are all alone?… I would cuddle my pillow tight and force myself to sleep..and maybe visit the doctor tomorrow. what about you>??

with love and Good night

You make me feel …

#1 You make me feel – disappointed

After writing so many post on Sunday night, I felt so happy and loved on the same time. However, all this contended feeling just disappeared in a split second. Ah, then it came upon me, I am dreaming?

So what actually happened? Well, it is of course not very nice to elaborate it to the public which I really wish to when that incident happened. Hiccups to happen in a relationship and sometime trust can be destroyed in a prolong denial. To man, sorry is just a simple word where they will just forget about the incident. Well, it is very different from girls. But on the other side if they don’t feel sorry, the issue will then be repeated. Then it will be like a cancerous cell! The best is to sit down and talk it through! Screaming each others head off is not an issue in a relationship. ~cheers!~ I am ok readers!

So baby! I am looking forward to see you this weekend!

#2 My first Ever interview post seems to attract a lot of attention. With all the comments..I think you make me feel *shy* already! ahaha! Ah well, see I may be confident academically but not so good in posing for job that requires beauty and poised (like modeling, hosting, cabin crew and beauty pageant(which I back off few years ago and regretted!)).

You make me feel *shy*shy*shy* so *shy*

Now you get it? I dunno how to pose! ahahaha!

So any anti-dote to help me to balance up my self-esteem? AHAHA! Scary!

#3 The jam make me feel BAD!

I was stuck 2hr 15 min in the jam yesterday! HELP! When rain and thunder comes, KL seems to be in a chaos. Traffic lights goes whoot-zie! Streets go wet-ty (I mean of course la due to the rain), flash flood go crazy! and drivers go jam-mie! So the consequences of 2 hrs jam I am down with super gila gastric today since 9am! So The jam makes me feel BAD! BAD tummy, bad bad bad!

I miss writing!

It has been awhile since I last wrote this site. Well, running up and down, trying to put my career directions together and missing my love at the same time, I hardly type anything here. It is not that I do not have anything to pen down but then I have so much where I do not even know where to begin! So, this is my third post of the day!

Firstly: I miss my dearie!

After sending my love off to LCC-T last Sunday, I have not seen him at all till today! Which means we have not seen each other for 7 days already! Well, this Long Distance Relationship (LDR) thing has been going on for like 4 months already!

Comic from Pon and Zi

Missing him on weekdays, seeing him on weekends and sometimes not at all! I missh you! Hope thing will get back to normal soon (APRIL)!

Comic from pon and Zi

Two: Down size!

I remember when I was in high school my friends would always complain that I am fat (which I did not acknowledge it back then). Even my mom says I am fat! Ok! I am fat when I look back now. I was practically wearing size L (clothes fr padini, BG or anything) and waist line of 28-30..which means have to be L for my pants!

So what happen today? I think I am fat but people think I am a stick! One of my friend describe me as a ikan bilis!

So, I am not fat neither thin! This is what I am – broad shoulder, big backside but very small waist with very large feet! ER… Nevermind.. I just describe myself as an alien! HAHA!

Today, tops from L have scale down to S or even XS for sleeveless top and S to M for T-shirt! Don’t ask me how I get there! The biggest  shock I got lately was my bottoms! I fit in S for jeans (remember I used to be L) and Now S can be even lose for waist high bottom.. ER… yesh!

I was trying on a skirt in MNG…it was size 2…Then I asked the sales-lady if there is anything smaller than 2 because it is still a little lose…She look at me…*blank* Anything smaller means size 0?? And Tried a skirt from Kitschen and I fit in nicely in XS...GOSH! What happened?

Do I still think I am fat>??…Maybe not FAT! JUST FLABBY! ahahahaha!

Ok Story end! Good to look like alien! ahahah bad because hard to buy tops and bottoms!

Three: New Revelation!

I met a girl during my interview yesterday. She thought I was short. Then she found out that I was not that short. So what is the new revelation?

-Short people have smaller face and tall people have bigger face!

HAHA! Something new eh? Or maybe you have come across this before!

Four: I am perasan when I am lazy/sleepy

I am still talking to this same girl. She told me I have a very nice face frame and look very beautiful, BUT just a little pimple breakout.

My answer : YESH I KNOW! SAD RIGHT?

My goodness! Who on earth does that! No brainer!

comic from pon and Zi

Five: Food promoters eats their own food!

Few month ago, I saw some promoter in Mid Valley promoting CNY cookies! What he did was – HE ATE HIS OWN COOKIE! He is suppose to hand out that cookie to promote it!

Either it is too delicious or he is too hungry!?

SIX: Different People with different view.

I was talking to a girl yesterday and I suddenly blurp out about my status (I AM MARRIED). She was shock with a very huge respond which left me very *shy* in a room of people.

To her, getting married is not a good thing. Her opinion was, it is best to stay single. Well, she love her boyfriend but afraid to be committed because people will change and her heart will change too. Married to her is like a knot that will tie you down from your freedom. She prefer to stay out from the knot so that she will be able to change partner when she dislikes her current one.

Hmmm…hard one? Yea… sometimes we meet people with different view.

Seven: I think I cannot think of anything else to write for now!

Enough of me perasan-ing here!

Chao! Have a great week ahead!